Officially, worst day yet!

Where do I even start..We are so concerned about her being so sleepy that we requested to speak to the neurosurgeon & neurologist. The neurosurgeon came in and said she is stable on their terms but it's possible it's just taking her a lot longer for her fluid balance to regain itself. However, we have now seen 3 small seizures and we're concerned because she is lifting her right arm which means they could be coming from her left side of the brain. The neurologist came in and said everything does not look ok. She has ordered a chest x-ray and urine tests to see if Lettie possibly has a secondary infection causing the lethargy and possibly causing the seizures. I cannot believe this is happening! This has been such a hard night and day. I feel so guilty for putting her through this for what is beginning to seem like nothing. Our nurse we have had today is a gift from God. She is so proactive for us and has no problem calling the doctors & demanding tests for us. So much has happened today, and our nurse just came in and said they have ordered a CT immediately and doing an EEG on Tue. I don't know what specific prayer requests to even ask for right now, everything has just come crashing down for her. Mark & I are emotional wrecks...if you call & I don't answer it's cause I can't talk without breaking down. I am so nervous I keep shaking & so nauseated I could vomit at any second! My greatest fear right now is that I've lost my Lettie, my beautiful, happy, & wonderful daughter because of this surgery. It is a real possibility that what we're seeing is what we have left...tube fed, lethargic, no left side movement. Boy, the difference a day can make. I am sick that I have to be posting this kind of news, just sick! And to be totally transparent right now, I am so angry that once again things just cannot go smoothly for us! These emotions will pass but it's a lot to stomach right now. Pray, please just pray, that's all I can ask.We need divine intervention to deliver us a miracle. God can do that if it's in his plan, boy how I wish I knew His plan.