More complications

Can we please get a break for just one day, one day is all I ask! You'll find me frustrated, tired, and emotionally spent in this post. It's 1:15 am & we have spent the last 5 hours trying to find a vein! When I say 5 hours I'm not exaggerating. The IV we had in her left leg became very swollen, and sore...infiltrated is the word I think they use. This led us to have to find a new spot which this poor child has no veins left that aren't bruised or blown. We had IV therapy, ER nurses, and finally a nurse from the NICU got one but it was very painful for Lettie. The only place left for them to stick was the palm side of her right wrist, which leaves her with the movement of her right leg. Sounds fun, huh! Her temp was 100.3 earlier and now it's 101.3. What the heck is going on here! I feel like I'm gonna wake up soon and this all just be a nightmare...how I wish this were true. Tonight as I prayed, I told God to disregard what I said and ignore my frustrations. I still have undeniable faith in my Lord, but as a person, a mother who's been in this stinkn' hospital for almost 3 weeks I'm just over it already. I want one solid, good day with no complications, no temp., no seizures, no swelling, no feeding problems..... I know I'm asking a lot but I feel Lettie deserves that. Let's face it she's only two and she can't speak for herself, heck she can't even move the left side of her body, so as her advocate I'll tell you she's over this as well. I'm so stressed over this keto diet as well. She eats the food fine, but I cannot get this child to suck on her bottle. I've decided that tomorrow I'm demanding they remove the NG tube and give her a chance to try to drink without that tube going down her throat. If we have to put it back it, trust me , we've been through worse things. I'm truly sorry you all are having to hear nothing tonight but my frustrations but we all have bad days and this is one of them for me. I'm homesick and ready to get on the path of recovery and stay on it. I'm so tired of getting so close and then another obstacle arise. I pray,pray,pray for some freedom for my daughter. She is so miserable tonight. I just want to stomp my feet and scream at the top of my lungs," Give us a break already!" But since it's almost 2 am and some people may actually be sleeping in this place, I'll just close my eyes, bow my head, and pray that my God will deliver us from this situation so very soon. Thank you so much for allowing me to let my guard down and vent! I'm not giving up, so don't think that, I'm just ready to get to the other side of this mountain we've been climbing for so long!